This poem was shared with us from one of the families we have served. There are many ways to cope with the grief of losing a loved one, sometimes it takes writing your feelings down on paper.
To My Mom
Catherine I Havens
(Date of Death: October 5, 2009)
(Date of Poem: October 5, 2010)
I can’t believe a year has gone by
My tears keep flowing, every day I still cry
A part of me died with you that day
And I don’t know if the pain will ever go away
I pray to God to give me strength to go on
To live my life for however long
And when it’s my time I hope I will see
Your beautiful smiling face looking at me
And we will be together again for eternity
All my love forever,
Kathy
I wrote this poem to my Mom on the 1st year anniversary of her passing while I was sitting in my car at the cemetery, after visiting her grave site, and not wanting to leave. The 1st year since her passing had been very difficult for me. At times, I didn’t know if I could stand the pain of losing her. I just couldn’t let her go. It wasn’t until the words to the poem I wrote that day started flowing through my head and I put them on paper that I suddenly felt a sense of calm and knew that it was OK to let go and time for me to move forward in my life.
My faith tells me she is in a beautiful place and with Jesus. There’s a song called ‘I Can Only Imagine’ by Mercy Me and it speaks of what is the first thing we will do when we see Jesus’s face.
Surrounded by Your Glory, what will my heart feel?
Will I dance for you Jesus? Or in awe of You, be still?
Will I stand in Your presence, or to my knees will I fall?
Will I sing ‘Hallelujah!’? Will I be able to speak at all?
I can only imagine! I can only imagine!
Just imagine what our loved ones did when they first saw Jesus. What a beautiful moment that must have been. I can only imagine what I will do.
